say goodbye dont follow

.........

2005-02-01T17:40:27Z

this suck i am so fuckin sick i have mono =/ i hate it and i miss ashley so much my hole week is gonan be so shitty

the used all that ive got

2005-01-25T15:25:07Z

So deep that it didn't even bleed & catch me,
I'm caught red handed now I'm far from lonly.
I sleep, I still see you lying next to me,
So deep that it didn't even bleed & catch me.

Aah Aah
I need something else
would someone please just give me.
Hit me & knock me out & let me go back to sleep.
I can laugh all I want,
Inside I still am empty.
So deep that it didn't even bleed & catch me,
Aah Aah.

I'll be just fine pretending I'm not,
I'm far from lonely & it's all that I've got.(2x)

I guess I remember every glance you shot me.
Unharmed, I'm losing weight & somebody heat.
Eyes closed so hard I stopped your heart from beating,
So deep that I didn't even scream, "Fuck me".

Aah Aah
I'll be just fine pretending I'm not,
I'm far from lonly & it's all that I've got.(2x)

It's all that I've got.(6x)

So deep that it didn't even bleed & catch me,
So deep that I didn't even scream "Fuck"

I'll be just fine pretending I'm not,
I'm far from lonly & it's all that I've got.(2x)

And it's all that I've got.(3x)

pissed

2005-01-21T18:23:32Z

i'm so sick of the fucking fighting i cant fucking take it anymore i just wish it will all fucking stop

lol

2005-01-16T23:37:38Z

today was fucking awesome brad came over for a lil bit then we drove to his house he was doing like fucking 80 on every street it was sick lol then we went to go get ashley to go to the spooky house in the wood well thats it
i love you ashley

bored

2005-01-03T02:23:46Z

tired and bored and a lil upset like always my day was fun i guess me ryan, greg and everybody else went to job lot and we put greg in a shopping cart and pushed him down the street and he hit this rail next to job lot it was so funny he almost went over the rail into the other street me and my friends fell on the ground laughing and this van drove by and they look at us like wtf it was wicked funny then greg did it again into a pile of snow and some dude walking by was laughing his ass off well there is school tomorrow o boy but at least i get to hang out with ashley after school so thats kool well i'm gonna go i love you ashley

bored

2004-12-28T17:32:44Z

Grunge! You're all about the music and would even
turn your back on fame just to stay true to
your roots... You reached your high in the
early '90s, but you're still making some good
stuff! Keep rocking!

What genre of rock are you?
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i really hate christmas

2004-12-25T20:48:57Z

today sucks the only thing that came good out of all this is i got to talk to ashley =D and tomorrow me and her are gonna go to the mall and hang out its gonna be so awesome i love you ashley me and her hung out after school on thursday we walked to her house lol and i got to meet jens fish its pretty big and i got to here ashley play guitar shes wicked sick at guitar me and here where playing with the water bottle and we got soaked lol it was funny well i'm gonna eat some ham i love you ashley

..

2004-12-20T04:40:47Z

ashley i love you so much more than anything in the world there is nothin i wouldn't do for you i will always be there for you i love you so much you always make me happy i care more about you than anything in the world or anyone i hope we stay together forever i love you ashley i couldn't ask for a better girlfriend i love you so much

punkrockerdude2 @ 2004-12-17T18:28:00

2004-12-18T02:28:24Z

Join Me (In Death)

What Song By HIM Are You?
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bored

2004-12-17T23:43:57Z

bored just sitting here doing nothin dun dun dun ..........

......

2004-12-15T23:47:19Z

today sucked school as boring but at least i got jakes pass for his thing Ashley's sad i love you ashley plz feel better you mean so much to me try to feel better i love you i hope you do by tomorrow and i hope we get to hang out this weekend i love you ashley

alice in chains

2004-12-13T02:00:40Z

layne staley singer from alice in chains
rest in piece

today honoring alice in chains

alice in chains
dont follow

Hey, I ain't never coming home
Hey, I'll just wander my own road
Hey, I can't meet you here tomorrow
Say goodbye don't follow
Misery so hollow
Hey you, you're livin' life full throttle
Hey you, pass me down that bottle, yeah
Hey you, you can't shake me round now
I get so lost and don't know how, yeah
And it hurts to care, I'm going down
Forgot my woman, lost my friends
Things I'd done and where I've been
Sleep in sweat the mirrors cold
See my face it's growin' old
Scared to death no reason why
Do whatever to get me by
Think about the things I said
Read the page it's cold and dead
Take me home (5x)
Say goodbye Don't follow

alice in chains
heaven beside you

Be what you wanna be
See what you came to see
Been what you wanna be
I don’t like what I see

Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter will
Heaven beside you... hell within
And you think you have it still, heaven inside you

So there’s problems in your life
That’s fucked up, and I’m not blind
I’m just see through faded, super jaded
And out of my mind

Do what you wanna do
Go out and seek your truth
When I’m down and blue
Rather be me than you

Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter will
Heaven beside you... hell within
And you wish you had it still, heaven inside you

So there’s problems in your life
That’s fucked up, and I’m not blind
I’m just see through faded, super jaded
And out of my mind

Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter will
Heaven beside you... hell within
And you know you have it still, heaven inside you

So there’s problems in your life
That’s fucked up, but you’re not blind
You’re just see through faded, overrated
And out of your mind

alice in chains
down in a hole

Bury me softly in this womb
I give this part of me for you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers
In a tomb...in bloom

Down in a hole and I don’t know if I can be saved
See my heart I decorate it like a grave
You don’t understand who they
Thought I was supposed to be
Look at me now a man
Who won’t let himself be

Down in a hole, feelin’ so small
Down in a hole, losin’ my soul
I’d like to fly,
But my wings have been so denied

Down in a hole and they’ve put all
The stones in their place
I’ve eaten the sun so my tongue
Has been burned of the taste
I have been guilty
Of kicking myself in the teeth
I will speak no more
Of my feelings beneath

Down in a hole, feelin’ so small
Down in a hole, losin’ my soul
I’d like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied

Bury me softly in this womb
Oh I want to be inside of you
I give this part of me for you
Oh I want to be inside of you
Sand rains down and here I sit
Holding rare flowers (oh I want to be inside of you)
In a tomb...in bloom
Oh I want to be inside...

Down in a hole, feelin’ so small
Down in a hole, losin’ my soul
Down in a hole, feelin’ so small
Down in a hole, outta control
I’d like to fly but my
Wings have been so denied

alice in chains
man in the box

I'm the man in the box
Buried in my shit
Won't you come and save me, save me
Feed my eyes, can you sew them shut?
Jesus Christ, deny your maker
He who tries, will be wasted
Feed my eyes now you've sewn them shut
I'm the dog who gets beat
Shove my nose in shit
Won't you come and save me, save me
Feed my eyes, can you sew them shut? }
Jesus Christ, deny your maker }
He who tries, will be wasted } (2x)
Feed my eyes now you've sewn them shut }

the crow

2004-12-11T20:24:48Z

just got done watching the crow its such a sick fucking movie i'm also waiting for ashley to get home and call me bc i have not talked to her all day and i was in my room the hole day doing nothin bc its to shitty out ashley i miss you come home....

..........

2004-12-07T23:15:50Z

today sucked i had sci for a hour and a half it sucked so bad i fell asleep at the last 45 min i woke up and there was spit on my test lol and me ashley wayne his gf and Derick and greg and amber stayed after but the lib was closed so we couldn't get a bus pass but luckily we got 20 so we will have them for when we need them lol i wonder...... how did we get them cough cough lol miss varo kicked us out before the bus came bc we where all acting like lil idiots so we had to leave the building and go in the rain lol i was hugging ashley the hole time outside i tryed calling her a lil while ago she sounds upset but she said she was just tired i hope she isn't upset well i'm gonna go finish my burger so l8ter i love you ashley!!!!!!!!

..

2004-12-02T02:50:11Z

the past days of my life have been just swell i mean come on who doesn't want to sit in a room hearing about your x gfs problems if that just doesn't put it on top well lets see how about fucking people need to fuck off i cant fucking stand them plus the problems and me and ashley fighting its not really fighting its just stupid shit and i don't want to fight with her i just don't wanna turn out like my last relationship and i want to stop the fighting ashley i love you and i don't wanna fight

.....

2004-11-28T20:26:47Z

mudvayne
World So Cold

When passion's lost and all the trust is gone,
Way too far, for way too long
Children crying, cast out and neglected,
Only in a world so cold, only in a world this cold
Hold the hand of your best friend, look into their eyes,
Then watch them drift away
Some might say, we've done the wrong things,
For way too long, for way too long

Fever inside the storm,
So I'm turning away,
Away from the name
(calling your names)
Away from the stones
(throw sticks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us

Keep your thorns
'Cause I'm running away,
Away from the games
(fucking head games)
Away from the space
(hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold

Burning whispers, remind me of the days,
I was left alone, in a world this cold
Guilty of the same things, provoked by the cause,
I've left alone, in a world so cold
Fever inside the storm,
So I'm turning away,
Away from the name
(calling your names)
Away from the stones
(throw sticks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us

Keep your thorns,
'Cause I'm running away,
Away from the games
(fucking head games)
Away from the space
(hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold

I'm flying, I'm flying away,
Away from the names
(calling your names)
Away from the games
(fucking head games)
The circumstances of a world so cold

Why does everyone feel like my enemy,
Don't want any part of depression or darkness, I've had enough,
Sick and tired, bring the sun, or I'm gone, or I'm gone

I'm backing out, I'm no pawn,
No mother-fucking slave to this,
Never lied
Never left
Never lived
Never loved
Never lost
Never hurt
Never worry about being me, or anyone else
Not a care, no concern, don't give a shit about anything,

Backing out, giving up, no mother-fucking slave to this,
Never lied
Never left
Never lived
Never loved
Never lost
Never hurt
Never worry about being me, or anyone else
Not a care, no concern, don't give a shit about anything,

I need to find a darkened corner,
A lightless corner,
Where it's safer and calmer,

I'm turning away,
Away from the name
(calling your names)
Away from the stones
(throw sticks and stones)
'Cause I'm through mending the wounds of us

I'm running away,
Away from the games
(fucking head games)
Away from the space
(hate this head space)
The circumstances of a world so cold

I'm flying, I'm flying away,
Away from the names
(calling your names)
Away from the games
(fucking head games)
The circumstances of a world so cold

^_^

2004-11-27T00:16:03Z

i love you ashley

staind
epiphany

your words to me just a whisper
Your face is so unclear
I try to pay attention
Your words just disappear

'cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things i should have said

So i speak to you in riddles
'cause my words get in my way.
I smoke the whole thing to my head
And feel it wash away
'cause i can't take anymore of this,
I want to come apart,
Or dig myself a little hole
Inside your precious heart

'cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things i should have said

I am nothing more than
A little boy inside
That cries out for attention,
Yet i always try to hide
'cause i talk to you like children,
Though i don't know how i feel
But i know i'll do the right thing
If the right thing is revealed

'cause it's always raining in my head
Forget all the things i should have said

......

2004-11-26T00:50:04Z

with this knife
smile empty soul

i let myself fall into a lie
i let my walls come down
i let myself smile and feel alive
i let my walls come down
no matter how i try i don't know why
you push so far away
you wrapped your hands tight around my heart
and squeezed it full of pain

with this knife i'll cut out the part of me
the part that cares for you
with this knife i'll cut out the heart of me
the heart that cares for you

i can't believe the way you took me down
i never saw the pain
coming in a million broken miles
like poison from my veins

with this knife i'll cut out the part of me
the part that cares for you
with this knife i'll cut out the heart of me
the heart that cares for you
with this knife i'll cut out the part of me
the part that cares for you
with this knife i'll cut out the heart of me
the heart that cares for you

the hate and the fear,
the nightmares that wake
me up in tears.
the nightmares and the hate,
and the fear
the nightmares that wake,
me up in tears.
the nightmares and the hate,
and the fear
the nightmare that wake
me up in tears
the nightmare and the hate

......hahahha

2004-11-25T14:42:30Z

hahahhaahhhahahah a talking taco that craps out icecream

lol

2004-11-24T02:38:10Z

i love you ashley uhuhuhhuhu
bored but im not anymore im watching spiderman o boy and talking to ashley!!!!!! woooo ashley

lol

2004-11-22T03:24:07Z

we see the distant flames that bellow in the night
we fight in all our names for what we know is right.
and when we all get shot
and cannot carry on
though we die

la resistance lives on

lol im talking to ashley on the phone uhuhuhhuhu ya so la resistance lives on!!!!!

^_^

2004-11-21T14:07:13Z

ya yesteday was my b day it was awsome me and ash went to the movies lol but when we got there it was to full so we just went to the mall and walked around like stupid idiots lol it was fun then we went to her house for a lil bit lol ya ashleys house and i seen her awesome guitar then i got taken home =( lol its okay it was awesome i love you ashley

lol

2004-11-19T15:29:12Z

You Know You're Right

what where

2004-11-12T01:15:40Z

Ya so today was boring i woke up and crystal came over and she got mad at me and left so ya after that i went to go see wayne for a lil while it was really boring i also called ashley ya ashley wooooo i listened to here play guitar it was ummmmmm ok i guess lol ya she good at it i just tryed calling her back but she has to call me back tomorrow is gonna be sick i'm gonna be outside all night having the fire going in the pit just to piss off the people across the street bc there old and shit i also was thinking about stuff and i realized something and now i have to go do what i realized and i hope its the right thing to do but who the fuck cares now anyways lol theres no point of going to school tomorrow i don't no why we need to go its stupid i am prob gonna stay home if i can well im gonna go so i can wait for ash to call me back

mad...

2004-11-09T03:12:57Z

This is fucked up its always gonna be like this me and crystal breaking up again o boy i didn't see that one coming then someone sticking up for her making me feel like i'm the bad guy its bullshit its never gonna work out like i said and i dont think its ever gonna be like it was when we first started going out shes just gonna keep on breaking up with me then saying she never meant it and she wants to go back out with me its really fucked up and i don't no what to do bc its really stupid and I'm really sick and tired of doing this over and over again its just no matter what we try to do its never gonna be the same like a while ago and i'm sure it'll happen again and again and it will keep on happing and its not gonna stop....